I was totally on the fence about booking a maternity photo shoot. It has been a rough month for us and adding yet another “To Do” item to our list seemed a bit daunting. But gosh, I’m glad we did! I found a local mom/photographer and we met up a few weeks ago at a local pea patch right before sunset. I wanted that warm, late summer light and she captured just that! Here are a few more…take a look!
Reminding her of the agreement we’d made over the weekend – that the next seizure would be her final one because I wasn’t going to let her suffer anymore.
Holding her on the cool bathroom floor as best I could with a pregnant stomach in the way.
Telling her just how much she meant to me and that it was all going to be OK.
Knowing we needed to get her to the vet ASAP but really not wanting to go.
At the age of 34, you’d figure I’d be used to making all sorts of grown up decisions – buying a home, starting a family, etc. – but making the decision to put a pet down was single handily the hardest thing I’ve done in my life. She went quickly and quietly and as much as I wished we could have done it at home, where she wasn’t confused or afraid, it had to be done. She will always be our first baby.
Call me a bit morbid, but we got her remains back and she sits at the entry to our now quiet home. I light a candle for her every evening if I’m home and give her urn a pat and a goodnight on my way to bed. At some point, we’ll take her down to the ocean but I’m not quite ready to let go just yet. I so wish she could have met our little girl, whose impending arrival has somewhat softened the blow of this huge loss. And though they will never meet, our daughter will always have black and white puppy toys around her, whether she likes it or not 😉
Love you Smells.
I’ve had some free time on my hands lately and have been scouring etsy for coming home outfits which made me remember that I have a sewing machine and basic sewing skills. Duh! ***Side note: why do all coming home outfits have freaking arrows on them? Please, for the love of god, no more arrows people.
Not sure if I’m ready to tackle an entire outfit, but it did send me into the depths of the internetz to find some easy baby sewing projects that will keep me busy on the weekends. And who knows, maybe I will be ready to try and sew her something to wear by the end of the summer!
So here’s what I’ve been working on. Most were made with scraps of fabric I had collected over the years. Gotta love almost free projects!
Taggie blanket that crinkles! The secret to a good crinkle you ask? Plastic cereal bags. Mind blown.
Drool bibs! Puppies? Yes. Holiday prints? Yes.
Burp clothes. I think a 5 year old could make these – they were SO easy.
Watching: GoT. And sometimes twice in one week. I mean, why not? Love that show and am more than happy to re-watch with the hubby when he can’t watch it earlier in the week. I have a friend who couldn’t watch it while pregnant because it stressed her out too much. Glad I’m the opposite! It’s like my meditation.
Loving: Actually showing! The first six months of this pregnancy looked like I over indulged at Chipotle #notagoodlook. Happy to finally be rounding out though I suspect that will change around month eight when I’m as large as a blimp. Also loving our new/used car gifted from Adam’s family. I was a tad worried about the car situation with a new baby (ie. that crappy truck) and now we’re all safe and sound with Grandma Roz’s Malibu which came to us all of the way from Florida.
Listening to: BORNS. Saw this band at Sasquatch and loved, loved, loved them. This ‘ish is on repeat.
Doing: Oh just switching doctors midway through our pregnancy! I’d spent the first trimester hella anxious about any and everything that I really didn’t have the brain power to think about our options. Since things have been good so far and we’re hoping for a natural birth, we decided to move to the midwives clinic at Northwest Hospital. It’s a completely different vibe and I’m loving what they are putting out there. I like the idea of being in the hospital but with the option of few interventions. I also love, that unlike an OB, they are there with you at the hospital from the get-go. If it’s a 20+ hour labor, then they are there 20+ hours. Talk about customer service!
Reading: Parenting without Borders by Christine Gross-Loh. Kinda skipped over the labor and delivery stuff and am super intrigued as to how other cultures raise their children. Kindness, empathy, self-reliance and community? Sign me up. This blog series on motherhood around the world first got me hooked. I suspect this will be re-read in due time.
Eating: Strawberries and sandwiches. Then more strawberries. I haven’t had any real food sensitivities or uber weird cravings at all. Definitely feeling more hungry these days though. Glad that the local farmer’s markets are in full swing and I can get my fruit fix!
Thinking about: How to have a little fun this summer without getting eaten alive by mosquitoes. We usually do a lot of camping and hiking but have had to cancel those plans. I know Zika isn’t in Washington state, but guys, I get seriously attacked. I can’t imagine 100+ bites being good for my immune system nor the DEET I need to slather on to try and keep them away. So that pretty much keeps us in town for the summer. Sad face.
**Also, how cool is this 3D image of our little one? Oh technology!
We hosted a little reveal/BBQ for the family a few weekends ago. Being the first grandchild on both sides adds a bit of extra excitement for all so why not make it extra fun!? The hubby and I found out a few days prior to the party then quickly planned everything out for the big reveal. I pulled most of the decor from my event stash and went with the half pink and half blue theme. The peonies came from the yard which was a total win. And I ordered the cake from local bakery, Borracchini’s Bakery. Now this is not your organic, GF cake. This is a straight up old school sugar bomb. I’m still having dreams about this cake…but I digress. Most importantly, we used the cake to reveal the sex of the baby with colored frosting in the middle. We wanted to be sure to add a bit of memory making too so we made all party guests sign the ultrasound photo in either pink or blue depending on what they thought it was. I also printed out baby wish cards for everyone to fill out which will go in the baby book. This lil gal is so loved already!